Will be's and going to's

Habits are simultaneously wonderful and horrible. At present, I am trying to break a few and form a few and it is incredibly difficult. Human that I am, I object to and avoid change as much as, and sometimes more than, the next but I, with the help of some friends and family, am trying my hardest to make some changes in my life. The first and foremost being my eating habits. While I don't necessarily eat poorly, I can eat better and I want to so I along with a friend joined a site where we can track what we eat and pay attention to our intake of calories, carbs, fats, and proteins versus how much we burn in a day. Because I'm not always near a computer, I even carry a small notebook to record what I eat. That notebook serves a dual purpose. Not only do I record what I eat, but I also use it as a journal of sorts. It's in this notebook that I pen whatever I want to write in that moment so I can piece together my jumbled-up thoughts. This is another habit I'm working to form. Writing everything out serves to help undo stress and help me relax when I can't use my other go to methods (meditating mostly).

With school starting in exactly one week I'm also trying to get back into learning. A four month break is not helpful with that. My brain is foggy on certain areas and so I'm working to attempt to fix it. Speaking of work, I've been working overnights all summer. I do not recommend this to people who crave the sunlight and time with family as much as I do. While I did get a fair amount of sun, I did not get the opportunity to spend time with my family as I so wished and wanted to. I'm trying to find a new job because of this.

Previous semesters I managed to get by on my financial aid, a part time job where I only worked weekends, and babysitting. However, this semester I need a substantial paycheck so that I can save money for another change that is coming. My grandparents are selling their house here so I need to find a new place of my own unlike the majority of my peers. A terrifying endeavor because along with that, I need to find a four-year university to transfer to. I'm not content with simply an AD and would like to achieve a PhD in my life. This, however, also means figuring out what field I want that PhD in. Challenges abound in trying to support myself and get through school because I face this with only myself as my launch pad. "Home" as I knew it before doesn't exist and I'm facing becoming my own home being as independent as I can manage. I'm not going to fool myself into thinking I can do it all on my own, I know I'll be turning to my parents for help in certain areas but for the most part I've just got me. I'm looking at a nearly insurmountable obstacle and I'm desperately hoping I don't fall flat on my face.

I'm not going to apologize for my long absence considering you 4 are my only followers and have been able to keep up with me on facebook though I will say I do intend to write here more now.

P.S.- I'm terribly excited for the return of Doctor Who!!!!!!

P.P.S.- I'm catching up on Falling Skies and Torchwood: Miracle Day because I adore sci-fi oh so much :)